Maybe This Time

Alex: This song is kind of a companion song to Spotlight (on Fade Away). There’s two things here. One is: I couldn’t imagine being a woman and having society constantly pushing me to find someone and be social. As a complete introvert, that would be devastating. The other thing: I was a young dude once. I was not always forthcoming with women I dated. In my experience they were looking for a mature relationship and I maybe presented that way, but was looking for um…other things? I mean pizza! Definitely pizza….

So the song is kind of about how (especially early in life) guys are kinda jerks. Well, at least I was. And how a good human being has to keep cycling through immature guys until she finds one that isn’t. And I don’t know why my two songs (Spotlight and this one) which put forth that a woman has to generally overcome patriarchy and be very strong in our society seem to be my most poetic lyrics? I doubt this song will resonate much (considering my audience metrics tell me I’m 80% male listeners), but I genuinely think this song and Spotlight are some of my best lyrics in terms of cadence, word choice and theme.

She takes the lid off the box

Afraid of what’s inside

Letters that she never sent

Pages filled with good intent

And love

How many times she asks herself

Until there finally is no doubt

She cries softly to the sound of rain

All she ever wanted was someone to hear her song

But the world has gone deaf

They can’t hear anymore

Maybe this time

This time she says

And time is a tricky thing to hold on to

And she feels the weight of tomorrow’s pain

Tonight she’ll take enough to smile

Surrounded by the faces of denial

The faces of her past

In the old photographs

She knew they were all hiding behind masks

All she ever wanted was someone to hear her song

But the world has gone deaf

They can’t hear anymore

Maybe this time

This time she says

All she ever wanted was someone to hear her song

But the world has gone deaf

They can’t hear anymore

Maybe this time

This time she says

Things will be different

She slips into bed

She turns the light off

She hides her head

Just like a child

She’s dreaming of sunshine